Diamonds

she always said
"there is something healing in darkness
it somehow shields me from the fray
i’m only full within my emptiness
that’s just my way. that’s just my way."

and i’m reminded of the days
i sat alone in coffeehouses
reading jung
and drinking klimt in through the eyes
i asked those diamonds from the past
to make their monstrous music louder
make me naked, make me strong
take away incessant longing after longing

she always said
"my last breath is coming soon
don’t think i’ll last another day.
i can’t sit around here waiting for the morning
it’s just my way. it’s just my way"

and i’m reminded of the days
i walked alone in midnight madness
blessing ice and snow
and cracks within the pavement
begging diamonds from the past
to make their monstrous music louder
make me naked, make me strong
take away incessant longing after longing